One Day...

When you're little, your "one days" are dreams for the future.

One day, I will be singer on Broadway.

Then, you grow up a little and they become more realistic.

One day, I will be old enough to drive.

You leave the nest to find yourself and your true identity and they start to define who you will be.

One day, I'll be a teacher.

For many of us, life happens and your "one days" take a while to manifest themselves. For me, an unplanned pregnancy threatened everything I'd ever planned for my life.

One day, I'll finish my degree.

One day, we'll have the life we've always dreamed of.

One day, we'll make enough money to do more than scrape by.

Life settles down and you realize it all worked out after all. Until you see that it really didn't.

One day, he'll stop lying.

One day, he'll stop cheating.

One day, his family will be enough for him.

One day, the manipulation will stop.

One day, he'll be too old for affairs. Right?

And then, one day, you start your life over again. You find someone who loves and respects you the way you've always deserved to be loved and respected. Once again, the "one days" evolve.

One day, God will give us the baby we are praying and trying so hard for!

One day, Emmie will look me in the eyes.

One day, she will turn her head when I call her name.

One day, she'll say my name.

One day, she will tell me she loves me. Right?

It's only been 2023 for barely two months and I've already experienced so many different "one days" that I didn't anticipate.

One day, we sat at dinner and enjoyed an adult conversation with friends while Emmie colored quietly in her seat.

One day, Emmie was able to tell me that she was frustrated she wasn't being allowed to finish her show before leaving the house.

One day, Emmie called me her best friend; along with twenty other people she started to list as well!

It seems we are always stuck planning out our futures. We don't realize we are living our once "one days" right now. Today. I don't know if it's mentally possible to stop thinking about the future and what we hope for it.

One day, I will get to sleep in past 5:30am.

For today, I'm choosing to be grateful for where I've been and where I am now, instead of where I'm going.

I wish I could go back and tell a younger me:

One day, you will overcome hard things. Life will be difficult in times it should be easy. You'll be betrayed in ways you won't see coming. You'll never lose faith and hope. You will persevere and become the best version of yourself. You'll experience overwhelming pain and breathtaking love. Take it all in, and don't be afraid. One day, you'll look back and see how it all made sense.